Show up

So happy you're still here! It's been a while!

I can come up with a handful of "excuses" as to why connecting with you girls has been a challenge for me the last few weeks.

Let's see....

- Mia's NO nap weekends (this is when I used to get a lot of work done for The Girl's Club)

- A seasonal after school program keeping me longer at work

- A new teaching time and club has caused me to switch up my morning workout schedule to include a nighttime workout

- Appointments after work

-Busy at home

-Busy at work

-life

ANNNNNNDDD SO ON AND ON...

But what it really comes down to is that I HAVE NOT made the time to post. Writing my weekly post slowly started to slip down on my priority list. And if I'm going to keep it honest, nothing really compelled me to write.

You see-

It appears I found myself in a little funk, pity party, bout of self doubt... however you want to frame it. I have been in my own shit, basically. Mindlessly eating, body shaming, and just half assing workouts. Feeling really overwhelmed at work, rundown, combined with the lack of new clients or interest has been slowly chipping away at my motivation to pursue what I have set out to do.

As I sit here typing this, I keep typing and deleting that last paragraph. Admitting this to myself is one thing, but letting you all in on this, is atypical of my usual message.

There's been times in the last few weeks when I have thought about writing a blog post and simply talked myself out of it by saying something like "no one will miss it or notice" or " it's not like I have this huge audience waiting for me to post.", "who is this even motivating/affecting?"

While in this funk, these questions were easily fueled by my self doubt, pity, shame. Thus, causing the reaction of, staying "busy", doing other things rather than connecting with you. Moreover, obstructing doing some self exploration on what's really going on.

I have hit a dry spell with individual clients or emails inquiring about services or consultation appointments. This engagement is a huge part of what fuels me to continue connecting, posting, sharing. Without it, I felt my purpose starting to dilute, shift.... then, cue the excuses!!

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It wasn't until this week that a fabulous friend and client set my ass straight, simply by thanking me. As I shared with her, her shout out meant so much on a deeper level + the timing was flawless, girl!! Karlene, I hope you know your impact!

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Why do I share?

A few reasons:

1. I mean this with all I have!..... If you are living in your truth, pursuing a dream or passion with good intention, know that you're making progress towards that dream, simply by showing up!

For me, showing up means honoring myself right where I am; behaving in a way that demonstrates self worth.

Showing up can mean packing your own lunch to save money and make a healthier choice. It can also mean skipping cooking dinner and ordering take out in order to spend more time with your family before bed.

2. Your relationship with vulnerability requires a shift in awareness, in order to strengthen your emotional well-being. For me, this post is me letting down my guard as a commitment to my own personal growth. Further showing that perfection does not exist!!

Refusing to share my struggle with self doubt would sacrifice a real connection with you and our collective human experience. While I am a "positive vibes only" type of girl, the reality of life is- sometimes we slip into our feelings. The intention of the post is normalize this feeling in you, too!

I hear you, I see you!

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Maybe, Just MAYBE you have those awesome people in your life that send you a message you need to hear, at just the right time to help you remember what you're about!

Thank you Karlene, this one is for you girl!

Go on girl,

XO, Kat